The Way The Cookie Crumbles

I will admit, my new years revamp isn't going excactly to plan. I haven't graced the gym with my presence or done something out there and spectacular. However, I have cuddled my 4 week old nephew and he has been sick and pooped on me countless times. I'm starting to get used to his tiny hands and eyes and how his body feels so delicate to me. His little lungs and heart beating twice as fast as ours. I am so proud of my sister and I am so proud of her little man :)
Anyway, what is this? Baby corner?
So, this has been the first year that I haven't gone back to school after the holidays and even though my sleep schedule is as messed up as a child star hitting puberty, it feels... odd somehow.
School never really changed as I grew up. Friends, subjects and uniforms changed but school as an institution never did. I still answered back to teachers who still didn't believe in me; I still got called my sisters name by the ancient religious studies teacher; I still had to keep dropping hints because the guy I liked still didn't know I had been flirting; and I still had to stand up for myself.
But now I've left, it feels like everything has changed and is changing extremely fast. I have nothing to fight against or be stressed about and yet that is what's putting me out of sorts. It's like I need to people to tell me I can't do it so I can prove them wrong.
*sigh* What a sick prank to pull on a gal!
I can't go to the gym tomorrow because... of a list or reasons, valid ones I might add, which means that it will have to be Thursday.
Yes, Thursday sounds a good day for something new.
Today wan't totally wasted though, my order came so my new coat, shoes and scarf are now draping luxuriously over my bedroom floor, man I love sales!