My Uni adventure begins | Round 2

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Ding! Ding! Round 2
Deep breath as I walk up to the entrance. Breathe. It'll be okay. It's not the same place. They're not the same people. Breathe, just breathe.
This was running round my head like a lopsided puppy with a chew toy, which she didn't really know why she was carrying, but she sure wasn't letting go. 

I knew getting myself worked up wouldn't help anything but it's a lot easier said than done. I felt like this was a hike. I knew that I had to keep moving even if it was hard or upsetting because there was an end goal. I had to pace myself and take regular breaks so that I could make it the whole way, because this time round I wasn't going to let anyone or my illness make me give up. 

 Fast forward to now, I've completed my first two weeks of lectures and seminars and I'm still here! I haven't had a breakdown yet, I had a couple of wobbles but nowhere near the extent of wanting to leave. I have realised that my metaphor of a hike is very close to how I feel, except I'm not on my own in this. Every time, I would worry about university or all the mountains of emails and documents I had to send, I would never think of the people who could help me fill in the forms or tell me it was ok and they missed me. I'd never think about the people who are sending emails on my behalf behind the scenes or sending me pictures to keep me going and show they care about me. I may be on a hike and it may be full of difficulties and hurdles but I don't have to find all the strength myself. 

 I am constantly surprised with how helpful the people at my university have been and how much my motivation has spurred me onwards. So, if you are reading this and finding life more than difficult, take a step back; look around you and see the people who care about you and love you. They might not be able to offer any practical solutions but a kind word and someone saying you're doing a good job can greatly help you keep going. And if you don't think you have any of those people then accept it from me. You are doing brilliantly by putting one foot in-front of the other and keeping moving forward. We can do this, and we will do this. 
Take care
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