Truth and honesty

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(This year is definitely starting with a bang! Two posts in January this must be madness!)
My second semester is starting tomorrow and I'm apprehensive but far less anxious than starting my first semester. They say I'm over the hill and on the final straight in terms of my first year at uni so let's hope that 'they' are right! I genuinely feel excited about starting new modules and learning new things from different professors. I used to think university was three years of learning more about the same thing until you are a fully fledged expert in that topic as if it was self contained, however, I now feel that university is like an obstacle course of education. You are constantly having to either run to catch up; jump over hurdles; climb through tunnels; walk whilst objects are being hurled at you and when you do get to calmly catch your breath and look around you, you realise how many months have gone by. And there is no real stopping because there is a time limit to this experience. Though this may sound terrifying or pessimistic, obstacle courses can be fun. Me and my siblings used to create our own ones when we were younger and though they were challenging and exhausting we always had smiles on our faces and did it all with laughter, together. It was also never a race, we took it in turns (mostly because there was only one washing line). So yes I'm sticking by my analogy of an obstacle course, we shall see if it changes in a couple months time.
Anyway, what has this got to do with honesty? Well, I try to be honest on this blog, possibly too honest, but I always want to say my lows as well as my highs. Possibly so it can help someone else going through the same things but also so that I remember the difficulties I've faced so I know I can do it again and it adds colour to my life story. I have already said how I have difficulty remembering simple things (short term memory loss) and so I may forget the fire I have been forged in. For me, this honest account of my life and uni years is priceless. However, outside this screen I am not entirely as truthful. I have to be honest about my condition and my limitations but sometimes I do just want to say I'm 'fine' or have another reason why I can't do 'x'. Telling someone you can't go because you're tired gets a bit repetitive after a while. Now I am not proud of this and I know that people will understand but for me this is my middle ground. I will always give people my honest opinion when they ask me for advice and I would never lie to people about big things but there is a different level of honesty for the 'real world'. I don't think that's a bad thing. Privacy is not the same as being dishonest. I know that people can just read this blog and find out but I like to think that most people have to ask me themselves which gives me the option to keep some things to myself. 
If you're starting your second semester too then I wish you all the best on this obstacle course we call life. 
Take care
x



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