Here are some thought's I've had whilst looking back on my 20 years of life.

 1. I love food! All types, cuisines and flavours. Food is amazing and I love it.
2. I can cook, pretty well. I mean I'm no Delia Smith, but I can follow a recipe without being too flustered and make up some dishes off the top of my own head too.
3. I have more determination than I would have ever thought possible and I can weather most storms.
4. My family mean a heck of a lot to me and no matter how disjointed or frustrating they might get, I wouldn't change them for the world.
5. Friends are people who care and take time for me too, it's a two way street and you can't look after everyone.
6. Don't spend time and energy on people who I instantly dislike and distrust. I can live my life without them and they can live theirs. I don't need people like that.
7. I am amazing under pressure! I always thought I'd be the kind of person who would breakdown at the slightest notion of things falling apart but actually I'm sort of a boss at getting things done when it really counts. 
8. Don't go on a trip abroad without having a solid plan of things I actually want to do.
9. I don't have to wear makeup all the time, literally noone cares. Also, bobby pins go in flat side up.
10. Social media is a brilliant way of connecting with people and having fun.
11. I don't need social media on all the time, some moments don't need a selfie or hashtag and are better as moments.
12. I can change a nappy, feed a baby, clean up baby sick (without gagging), rock them to sleep and not be mad when said baby wakes up early.
13. I love my nephew and niece so much. They are incredible and my sister and brother in law are amazing for looking after them. Sometimes it's hard when I can't see them or play with them as much but I will always be there for them if they need me.
14. It's ok to live life not according to plan. Everyone goes off the path sometimes and it can lead to a happier and more fulfilled one even if you can't see it straight away.
15. Don't force yourself to be 'normal', I am me and will always be. I cannot do something my body can't and I don't need to do what everyone else is doing if it means being miserable.
16. Sometimes I will do things I don't want to or have jobs I hate and that's ok. This will not be forever.
17. My CFS/ME is manageable, I just needed a lot of time, practice and someone to take a chance on me.
18. I am capable of patience. Not everything will be done right now and I can accept that, it gives you time to enjoy rather than stressing about it.
19. Barriers are not put in front of me without some way of going forward being there also. There is always a way to move onwards and upwards, I just have to trust it.
20. People will always have an opinion and 'advice'. You do not have to take it all to heart, just listen until they have finished and let it glide off you like rain. 
Take care
x
I have been ridiculously busy (for me) this month and it's just the start of my birthday week! Most of my time has been taken up with looking and applying for student accommodation. 
I have firmly accepted an unconditional offer to study Media and Communications at Leicester University and this time I'm going to be fully prepared before starting. I've done halls, sharing a cramped kitchen with 6 other people, where the walls are thin and rooms are cold and there isn't a work service that's not splattered in the remains of a pasta experiment abomination. It wasn't the best, putting it lightly. I mean the people were great, honestly amazing, lovely, vibrant people who had good hearts but not necessarily good cleaning or cooking skills. So now I get the luxury of choosing a better place for me in advance. 
I decided a studio flat would be the best option mostly because a one bed flat would leave me eating lettuce leaves and scraps from dumpsters in order to pay for it, so the cheaper alternative (although it's still expensive) is a studio flat. 
Firstly, it makes me feel like an adult as I have a contract and lease and everything. Also I can pretend I'm living in a movie where everything happens in one room, like 'the room'...actually scratch that.
Secondly, I can cook whatever, whenever I like. I can have a stew, pasta bake, rissoto and microwave meal all on the go at once if it so pleases me. The smell might make me hungry at 2am but at least I won't have to share my cheesy carb fest with drunk students. 
Thirdly, I can basically make breakfast and a cup of tea in bed whilst watching repeats on dave. I don't need hover boards, I'm already living in the future. 
Lastly, I can put the heating on as much as I want! No more freezing with the duvet wrapped around me at 4pm on a wednesday. I will basically have control of the elements. And by that I mean the heating elements in my radiator. 

I know that studio flats aren't available or the best for everyone and I think halls are brilliant for people who want to make friends quickly and haven't been away from home before. The chats over tea the morning after are reassuring but I've got to be honest, it's nice to rest easy knowing no-one will ever steal my precious nutella.

Take care
x
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